“We are bombarded daily by supposedly perfect images that we must somehow attain. We get stuck in an endless amount of comparison always finding ourselves lacking. Our minds are programmed by the media to diet, deny ourselves and never be satisfied with who we are right now. And we’re encouraged in so many subtle ways to obsess about our bodies and sculpt them into perfection and starve them into submission.” -Emily Rosen, Director of the Institute for the Psychology of Eating.
I couldn’t breathe.
I couldn’t sit still.
I kept rummaging the kitchen for something to eat, anything.
I couldn’t settle my mind and my body began to tingle almost a slow twitch, it started to itch and then tighten.
My hands became numb, my back felt heavy, my legs tight and achy, shoulders weighed down and chest started closing in.
I was having an anxiety attack.
Anxiety is a fear that the outcome won’t be as expected so we try to take control rather than trusting to leave everything in God’s hands.
Y’all my heart was heavy with worry for so many things, too many to list.
My mind began to focus on those things and the people and why I couldn’t do it. Why I couldn’t fix it/them. I became overwhelmed, I couldn’t go to sleep and my emotions got the best of me.
When we FOCUS on what we don’t have or on situations that displease us, our minds become darkened. In darkness, we miss the things we do have. We look for what’s wrong and refuse to enjoy life until it’s ‘fixed’. I literally had to stop, stand still and answer the voice that kept whispering in my spirit ‘what’s wrong’. Initially I thought it was me questioning what I had done wrong or right, but in fact it was The Holy Spirit inviting me to talk with Him.
God wants us to be honest, to share our deepest desires, even the overwhelmingly dark anxious thoughts. (1 Peter 5:7)
When we call on Him He answers. (Jeremiah 33:3) He gives us the answers to things we’ve searched for and questioned maybe even our entire lives.
He’s our help friends. He’s there for us! He’s always available.
Give Him your fears, your hopes, your dreams, your anxious thoughts. He cares.
His word promises that when we have done as He asked us to do with whatever it is He has given us His reply will be “Well done good and faithful servant”.
This one life that we’ve been given, we are expected to live it full and abundant taking care of the body we’ve been given, using the gifts we’ve been given to bless those around us, to be responsible and kind and loving and patient and we won’t ever be perfect. And guess what, we probably won’t do the way everybody else is doing it or the way they think we should’ve done it. But you know what, THAT’S EXACTLY THE WAY GOD INTENDED IT TO BE!
God ALWAYS considers the efforts we actually put into action “well done” not well considered or well planned or well thought out or well perfect. God looks at the heart/motives of a person while man looks at the outside.
We can take a deep breath and realize that we aren’t suppose to get this right. Anxiety isn’t fun. It’s overwhelming and exhausting. It’s deciding that I’ll start eating better, exercising and allowing God to guide my life including my finances then trying to make sure I see the end result the day after I started. That’s anxiety. It’s deciding to get a handle on my emotions then realizing that someone is hurting and they’ve pulled on you to help their hurt and end up hurting you and you can’t fix either of you because you aren’t Jesus, that’s anxiety. It’s recognizing that there are big dreams you’ve always had and you can’t wait to fulfill them and you make a goal list and you get so excited that you don’t know when or where to begin so you decide it’s too much and maybe you’re not good enough so why bother. THAT’S ANXIETY.
That’s NOT God’s plan.
Romans 12:1-3 (ESV)
A Living Sacrifice
12 I appeal to you therefore, brothers,[a] by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship.[b] 2 Do not be conformed to this world,[c] but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.[d]
Gifts of Grace
3 For by the grace given to me I say to everyone among you not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think, but to think with sober judgment, each according to the measure of faith that God has assigned.
Help me also not to think of myself of anything less than a child of Yours, God, dearly loved by You (Ephesians 5:1 ESV)
Your deep desire is for me to posses both humility and security
Spring Cleaning isn’t done til it’s done but listen, do it on purpose. Don’t do it to prove a point to anyone. Don’t do it to compare yourself to someone else. Do it because you are worth it. Every meal, every move, every breath, every better choice.
The 4 Steps of a better choices “diet”
- Make a daily record of everything you eat.
- Determine which foods contribute the most Calories to your diet.
- Make Better Choice substitutions for those foods.
- Repeat. Your goal is to gradually evolve your diet to include more nutritious and filling foods and less unhealthy and unsatisfying foods. Over time, as you incorporate more of these foods into your diet, the total calories that you consume will drop, and the overall nutrient density of your meals will increase
Breathe better & move with a few of these free movement circuits