Training a healthy heart: learning to run again


no playing small



Ok friends, this post is really just gonna be me dumping my brain & heart of some of the stuff that God has been sharing with me.

Sometimes I want to separate all the things into neatly organized categories with catchy labels so everyone will understand exactly what they’re getting.

Sometimes I think I should sort my thoughts the way the old HGTV shows would declutter houses: keep, toss, give away.

I want to make it receivable, bite sized, palatable and digestible. But what’s really happening is I’m trying to please people. I’m not being me.

Alright, Solidarity Confession: the real me doesn’t know organized. I didn’t grow up seeing the example. But she don’t like chaos either. I had more than my fair share thank you. She don’t appreciate clutter and confusion. But neither do I want something that’s so neatly set in place that without it we assume that life is disordered. Dear Jesus could you help me find something in the middle?

I’ve been coming into this space that maybe God wants to clutter and scatter some of the things I’ve tried to compartmentalize and at the same time He wants to untangle and separate the stuff we’ve assumed goes together. He is a God of order, not confusion. (1 Corinthians 14:33) So at the risk of seeming scattered, here’s my brain dump.

I’ve watched God in the past year somehow, at the same time; wreck & unravel me and just when I thought I was coming completely undone, He was already putting me back together.

I’ve discovered that the truest me isn’t shy. In fact the shyness was the result of a defense. I’m not well kept in tiny pink boxes with bows and flowers. (sidebar: I watch my daughter’s fashion sense of fancy dresses with converse and it’s like watching my personality playout in front of me.) I’m like a mad rush of Lenny Kravitz’s guitar riffs and banging drums with a few symbols and a Billy Joel style piano all played in tune.

Back to the loud music… Slightly crazy, I know, because each of the instruments are having their own rhythm session but somehow they’re giving permission to both the person who connects with one sound OR the one who’s vibin’ on all of them in a syncopated style. That’s the real me. I’m Dave Mathews Band and old school hip hop. I’m Doobie Brothers and Side Walk Prophets. I’m Cindy Lauper and David Crowder. I’m cheesy musical soundtracks and Beethovan.  Dare I say it, I’m Tupac AND MercyMe. And honestly that confuses people because they can’t peg me or label me and you know what; I kinda don’t care now because I spent most of my life trying to make sure I fit neatly into a category. I wanted them to knew who I was but I didn’t even know. But what I know now is that I’m over it. I don’t want to be labeled. If they decide to label me, let it be “LIKE JESUS”.

Instead I would rather be known
By the kindness and love that I show
To be known for patience and long suffering
A giver of life by the words that I speak

So with every breath You give to breathe
I pray it’s Your glory that they see
And of all the words this world could say
May they say I was full of grace

-Morgan Harper Nichols “A Prayer for Grace”

View More:

#Wrecked & #Redeemed “War Paint” Photo credit: Riant Photography for Revelation Wellness

Knowing that I am created in the image of the Creator who is beyond limits and labels, maybe; just maybe He has decided that I don’t have a label nor do I need one.

Friends the only way we will ever live beyond the labels is to get after the roots of fear and recognize who we are IN Christ. The greatest opportunity we have to break through the tough, stony places of our hearts and experience God’s unchanging unconditional love is in the simple, yet somewhat difficult invitation to remain/ abide / stay connected in/to Him.

ABIDE– (verb) to wait for, be prepared for, to endure or sustain

“Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit, He takes away; and every branch that bears fruit, He prunes it so that it may bear more fruit. You are already clean because of the word which I have spoken to you. Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself unless it abides in the vine, so neither can you unless you abide in Me. I am the vine, you are the branches; he who abides in Me and I in him, he bears much fruit, for apart from Me you can do nothing.”
‭‭John‬ ‭15:2-5‬ ‭NASB‬‬

This is where redemption happens and can I tell you something?

You are more beautiful than you give yourself credit for.

This is the year that He will restore your beautiful, your joy, your praise and your righteousness. God’s methods of restoration and redemption are almost always nothing like ours and the process might seem pretty ridiculous. But one thing is always true, HE KNOWS WHAT HE’S DOING and He WILL finish what He began!

“Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭139:14‬ ‭NLT‬‬ • Let God restore ALL that He has done in you!!!

more beautiful



Our desire to be more, do more and even search for more out of this life, was placed in our hearts by God.

He didn’t design us for less; He designed us to be great, to love big and to be more. But again, without Him we can’t do any of this and the only way to find peace or have the ability to live in more is b faith, IN HIM.

Friends, our ONLY option of being our best self is to let go of the hustle & grind; trying so hard to prove them wrong, the desperate things we do trying to seek approval, the obligatory shifts of character trying to gain acceptance.

All of these nagging, tormenting, never-seeming-to-get-ahead mirages are satan’s plan of attack on our identity. If He can get us to think that we aren’t enough then He will cause us to rise up with ill intentions and hurt hearts and he is quick to stand there at our side to tell us that we’ve done; still isn’t it. And yet on the flip side of that coin he has a slick way of telling us to back down and shrink because we’re too loud, too much, too something. Both of these are his kill, steal, destroy plan.

Check your heart. If your heart has any place in it that leans on the side of anxiousness; every action that comes from it will breed temporary results.

Psalm 139: 23-24

Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life.

So much of my identity has been trapped deep in the seat of my heart, covered by scar tissue and God has been redeeming all of it. The healing is a process but He promises that He will give us a new heart if we’ll let Him. He’s calling us back to our original design.

Listen friends, He calls us up; there’s no need to be afraid of that. He never calls us out to shame us. He calls us by name and invites us to come out of hiding and He gently takes those things in our hearts that have bruised us and replaces them with His tender mercy, restoring us back to truth.

Friends my prayer for us today is to let the walls down. To stop playing small when He has called us to greater. To see ourselves in the next mirror we walk by and recognize true beauty and be proud of that reflection rather than see it and begin listing the things we wished were different. Or worse, see the reflection and begin flaunting something we’ve fabricated behind a mask of acceptance.

We’ve put up some heavy defenses because we’ve been hurt. I get it. So have I. Although, the level of protection we’ve justified isn’t for anyone to deem unnecessary and I’m not suggesting that we throw our cares to the wind and act like we don’t need to set boundaries; I am saying that we’ve never felt what real protection from the love of God feels like so we’ve fabricated it and tried to manufacture something.  What happens in turn is that this temporary support system is not strong enough to keep us from the attacks of a very real enemy that wants to destroy us.  Little things come across our path that trigger memories of those issues we’ve pressed down and decided we just weren’t going to ever bring them up again; and one day they resurface and it burns worse than the initial sting. Roots have a way of coming up.

In Matthew 17:21 Jesus told them  “You don’t have enough faith, I tell you the truth, if you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it would move. Nothing would be impossible for you.”

What mountain do you need to move today? Every mountain has a root. Every mountain. That thing that you seem to keep going around and it never seems to go away? Yup. Roots.

Yesterday was a soaking, detoxing and mountain moving day for me. I had to let the Holy Spirit make my head listen to my heart and my heart listen to His love. It’s so easy for me to get trapped in only listening to one or the other and if it hasn’t been guarded by His grace it can be quite deceptive which is which!

I know that I CAN run. I just choose not to and He’s been calling me to run.

I’ve been ignoring it. In fact, I’ve been opting for other forms of movement as an alternative. But yall let’s just call that what it is, that’s disobedience. God don’t bless that. I was reading through the book Restless by Jennie Allen; she says “we were designed to run and He will keep calling us until we get up and move and it’ll be wonky and creaky at first – but in our weakness He is made strong. BUT WE MUST BE WILLING TO MOVE”.  1 Samuel 15:22 reminds us that obedience is greater than sacrifice and friends, if we could just follow the obedience we’d see that God has a perfect plan attached to it. And no He’s not going to reveal the plan because most of us would probably opt for our way because we think it’s going to be easier.  When I read that segment of the book I was both convicted and relieved because all of this restlessness I’d been feeling in my mind and body was found in  the fact that His love is a fierce pursuit of our identity.

Heart Health Resources:

  • Take a moment to listen this message I recorded on learning to run again.
  • Listen to the song Out of Hiding by Steffany Gretzinger
  • And then, take a few minutes to settle your heart with the “Healing The Roots” Holy Yoga stretching sequence.


MOVE IN FREEDOM – Healing the root places

Holiday Body Commitment: Weight loss SOUL-ution

Human nature is to hide our weaknesses from others, to put on a happy face around people, to swallow our sorrow to make others comfortable. But Jesus has a tender heart for His people that melts for us, that moves for us, that yearns for us, that endures with us, that will comfort us, that pours out mercy on us… so that we need not fear God’s judgment, ridicule, disappointment, rejection, or frustration when we come to Him just as we are. (exerpt from the YouVersion Bible App Names of God Thanksgiving through Christmas study)



What if we allowed Jesus to come take some stuff today?





He must increase in my heart as King and ultimate authority. I must decrease and relent my stubborn ways of running my own life. He must increase in my mind as I praise him in every situation. I must decrease in my spoiled complaining and whining throughout my day. He must increase in my life as I look to please him alone in everything I do. I must decrease as I evaluate the ways I spend my time and look for happiness. In order to RISE UP, I must decrease.// Affirmation from Sarah Francis Martin‘s book RISE UP!

This is an amazing resource for you to keep in your arsenal and EXCITING NEWS FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!! Sarah has just agreed to be a speaker for one of our FOCUS webinars!

Make sure you are signed up on our email list for registration information! SPACE WILL BE LIMITED! EACH MASTER CLASS IS ONLY $20!!!



Back to Basics: Weigh less

Because there are far too many of us just getting by, living by comparison or hustling to prove our worth…

Weigh Less To Feed More is better than anything I’ve ever seen in the “weight loss & nutrition” industry because it gets to the true root & reason why we’re all hungry and starving; yet full but never satisfied.

It’s more than calories and carbs, it’s beyond eating better on budgets and it’s far more than anything we could ever calculate in an app that’s designed to tell you when, where, why and how based on your lifestyle.
Who better to help us understand what we need in order to thrive than the One who created us… (Psalm 139) So if you’re ready to get honest, get whole & get free; click the link the link and get your spot reserved (sign up), I have 2 spots left and … we begin August 18th!
get honest

“But, except for these special cases, I’m not going to walk around on eggshells worrying about what small-minded people might say; I’m going to stride free and easy, knowing what our large-minded Master has already said. If I eat what is served to me, grateful to God for what is on the table, how can I worry about what someone will say? I thanked God for it and he blessed it!

So eat your meals heartily, not worrying about what others say about you—you’re eating to God’s glory, after all, not to please them. As a matter of fact, do everything that way, heartily and freely to God’s glory. At the same time, don’t be callous in your exercise of freedom, thoughtlessly stepping on the toes of those who aren’t as free as you are. I try my best to be considerate of everyone’s feelings in all these matters; I hope you will be, too.”
1 Corinthians 10:29-33 MSG

Yesterday a friend shared a t-shirt she found that read “SURVIVING MOTHERHOOD ON COFFEE & GRACE” of course immediately I asked where to get it, because seriously that’s my anthem and if I can have a tshirt to declare it; then it’s official!!! #thenewtattoo Last night I asked my husband to pray for me because the past few nights I haven’t really slept and I woke up this morning wondering if the prayer worked. Puffy eyes, stiff necked and groggy I’m tempted to say no {not yet}. Then the Holy Spirit immediately taps my shoulder and says “remember the whole coffee and grace thing, well one of those is overriding the other”… Y’all if I can just be honest for a second… I love coffee. But grace, I desperately need it; like being dehydrated, starving and horribly broken and it’s the only thing that will keep me alive!
Life is scary; people get rude; our kids grow up right in front of us and we blink and the wonder years are gone; death happens and grieving feels like it’s on a schedule of to-dos; competition & perfection rises up at the most inconvenient times; hustle becomes the buzz word of the decade and if you’re not on that train you’re the odd man out; friendships get thick & thorny and your purpose feels thin & flaky; authenticity becomes diluted to a hashtag and then like a flood God starts reminding you that where He has you RIGHT NOW is intentional.
When my hands are ready to go up and the towel is ready to be thrown in; He sends His Holy Spirit to remind you of the redemption, freedom & identity you have in Christ.
He comes like a gardener to uproot weeds that have been choking the life out of the fruit that’s been bitter, to tend to the growth of the sweet, fragrant and life-giving fruit. He comes like a healing balm to the mend brokenness that festers and invades our hearts, homes and happiness and He restores us back to His original design. This summer I set my heart & my mind on being intentionally available to my family & purpose – without missing a beat He consistently shines His light on the darkness and illuminates the joy. We get worn out when we’ve blocked/locked Him out. #relax #getinneractive #Matthew11
break free from food

Where are you on your eating habits? Where are you spiritually? Are you feeding doubts, emotions, fears, faith, comparison, hope, purpose? Have you considered the “process” or “philosophy” you live by and realized that this can’t keep you going for much longer because certainly there’s more to life than measurements, calories, checklists and meal plans? OR maybe you’re on the other side and decided that if you DON’T do that, then life as you know it would fall apart •••Listen, friend; I’m not here to tell you how to live, love or laugh but I am here to tell you that if we aren’t letting God regulate our decisions in how we take care of our daily lives, it’s REALLY EASY to become controlled BY our lives. Freedom – TRUE FREEDOM – in your own skin; doesn’t come attached to a checklist of anything that feels like captivity, like if you don’t do it right then you have to quit and chalk it up as a failed effort. By the way, if you fail that means you at least tried! AMEN?!?! So, listen This is your do over and this time you’ll do it differently because Grace is our anchor! • • •

Weigh Less (no longer weighed down) to Feed More (more availability to the people & purposes that matter) begins August 18!



Non-scale victories this time will be different



“But, except for these special cases, I’m not going to walk around on eggshells worrying about what small-minded people might say; I’m going to stride free and easy, knowing what our large-minded Master has already said. If I eat what is served to me, grateful to God for what is on the table, how can I worry about what someone will say? I thanked God for it and he blessed it!

So eat your meals heartily, not worrying about what others say about you—you’re eating to God’s glory, after all, not to please them. As a matter of fact, do everything that way, heartily and freely to God’s glory. At the same time, don’t be callous in your exercise of freedom, thoughtlessly stepping on the toes of those who aren’t as free as you are. I try my best to be considerate of everyone’s feelings in all these matters; I hope you will be, too.”
1 Corinthians 10:29-33 MSG

Maybe you have struggled with your weight your entire life, riding a constant roller coaster of numbers that go up and down along with pant sizes. Or maybe you are finding yourself more stressed out and pressed upon by the world and all its demands. Perhaps you just don’t feel as well in your body as you do in your spirit. Weigh Less to Feed More is going to change the way you perceive yourself and the way that you live your life. This time the change will occur from the inside out. We are seeking a change with roots that go deeply, so that when life comes at you hard and fast, you will stand firm in the truth of who God is and who He intends you to be. {pulled directly from the materials you’ll receive as a participant in the Weigh Less to Feed More FOCUS group}

• • • WEIGH LESS TO FEED MORE® – fall session begins in August.

Visit OUR ONLINE TRAINING PAGE for registration information or comment below to be added to the email list.

Redefine what food is to you!

God’s desire is for us to be Holy and Whole.



Let’s start here. (comment below)

List your top three physical health goals.

List your top three spiritual health goals.

Read Ephesians 3:20. What is God able to do?

What must be present in order for God to do more than we could ask?

What is your motivation for choosing to participate in Weigh Less to Feed More and why do you want to make a positive change in and for your health?

On a scale of 1-10 how motivated and willing are you to change?

Healthy(er): a process of elimination

Prayer. It’s kinda like water. You know you need it but by the time you NEED it you’re already dehydrated. Dehydration causes a ton of physical side affects like lack of concentration, muscle cramping, irritability, headaches, ehem the inability to eliminate the stuff your body doesn’t need (aka constipation) …  


We NEED water so that our bodies can simply function. 

Physically and spiritually.

Today’s #SurrenderedLife devotional challenged me regarding the time I spend praying – (which is just talking to God) – am I taking full advantage of it because I need it to function or just chugging it when I’m dehydrated? Is my faith cramping, is my life lacking clarity, are my emotions having spasms/fits, am I irritable… Could I potentially be spiritually dehydrated/constipated? 


Prayer not only hydrates our spirit, it helps us get rid of the toxic junk that’s clogging our spirit. 
“we can have ongoing communication with the Creator of the universe if we will seek Him with our whole hearts. 
What keeps you from spending time on your knees on behalf of others? Or better yet, when was the last time you just spent time praising God because He is worthy of it? Spend time today asking God to make you a person of prayer. Our very existence depends on our communication with our Heavenly Father.” – Living The Surrendered Life a She Reads Truth devotional 

Process of elimination 

For over 6 months I was crippled & in pain!
Two years ago this time (Spring 2014) I was under the care of a medical team & neurologist – I was full of pain, unable to walk without my body feeling like it was on fire and extreme exhaustion. 
After months of blood tests & MRIs and finding out that I was ridiculously healthy there was only one solution to this ‘untreatable’ issue. We realized there were some things that could only be dealt with by getting honest through self inventory, prayer and surrendering to God; allowing Him to get rid of the fear, years of anxiety and other junk (excess emotional weight) I was carrying around. God completely restored my strength!! (Those that wait on the Lord will renew their strength – Isaiah 40:31) 

It wasn’t overnight. It was a process of elimination. 

In the book Wild & Free; friends Jess Connolly & Hayley Morgan unpack a ‘hope-filled anthem for the woman who feels she is both too much and never enough’. 

YALL!!!! (I promise I’ll stop saying this if I can find another word that expresses my full OH MY GOSH LOOK WHAT GOD DID) … Until then, YALL!!! 

This book; which doesn’t release until May 3, but I was picked to be on the book launch team so you get to hear about it now and I am most definitely having a book club with it; this book is everything God was doing in our lives, is doing in our lives and is getting ready to do so He’s getting us prepared!!! I’m only on chapter 2 and I’ve probably highlighted most of the book and yelled AMEN with eyes full of redemption tears because y’all (I warned you) He hears us! He sees us! He loves us! Oh how He loves us!!!!! He wants us to live in the freedom He sent His son to random for us. We were captive and Satan wanted paid and He sent His son, He paid it ALL! For our debts, our crimes, our mistakes, the wrong done to us, the offenses, the guilt, the shame. Y’all!!! He paid it all!!!!! 

I need you to get that! 

Our hustle for healthy is already completed in Him. We just need to eliminate the stuff that has us so constipated we’re balled up in the fetal position. I know it hurts. Because there’s something blocking the digestive system of our life and nothing nourishing can even get to us. It’s time to detox: spirit, soul & body 

Adjust your focus

“We don’t remember that we have a Father to supply all our needs. His love and presence are no longer what spices our life and makes our world sweet. So we gather, we buy, we collect, we curate, we wish-list, and we make Pinterest boards. ” – Jess Connolly & Hayley Morgan: Wild and Free 


We add things to our life and to our rhythms in the belief that it will one day be enough. 

Process of Detoxification 

I originally posted this to encourage my fellow Revelation Wellness recruits because it’s week 6 of our #revwelltrain certification training & y’all it’s gettin’ real. Nutrition, self assessments, learning what serving your community looks like & listening to God’s instruction… 

We’re now standing where the newlywed honeymoon is over and the covenant promise of commitment to occupy where God has called you is right in front of us. At any rate, I thought the message was worth sharing for anyone that might need reminded to keep movin’… 

CHALLENGE: this week is an opportunity to ask & receive a new heart. 

This week is God tapping us on the shoulder and whispering redemption. 

This week is our chance to ask God for new desire, new focus, new attention, new purpose, new freedoms, new passion, new seasons… And then be willing to hear Him with open hearts, open ears and open hands.
I’m challenging myself to lean in closer to the ‘work’ WHENEVER I’m tempted to lean in toward anything, anyone or any way that might be unknowingly trying to distract me. 

This includes thoughts of overwhelm, feelings of lack of focus, feelings of limited time, feelings that steer me down a winding road of despair… Social media, BUSYness, food, etc… 

Reach out to someone who will be your prayer partner and allow them access to the space that Satan has been trying to trap you and kick him out. The bible promises that 2 can take out ten thousand and he knows it so he’s trying to isolate us.
I’m challenging you to press in this week friends. You were born for this battle. Suit up!

 Take some time today and listen to worship music and breathe 

Practice intentionally deep(er) breathing 

Inhale through your nose slowly on 4 counts til you feel your ribs rise and your belly extends, at the top hold for 2 seconds, slowly exhale from your mouth for 4 seconds giving your body to slump on the exhale. 

On the inhale make sure you’re not breathing and stopping at your throat and just lifting your shoulders, lift your chin off your chest and open your air way ON THE EXHALES OPEN YOUR MOUTH AND ACTUALLY HEAR YOURSELF SAY AH… It’ll be weird at first, but remind yourself that God created you with a breath!  

Give yourself permission to receive this new thing He’s doing.(Isaiah 43)


April Accountability 
April Accountability 

I want you to find that kind of freedom!!! 

During the month of April I would love to walk with you through the process. 

It’s not a get fit quick fix plan. No… it’s really all about gettin’ out the mental & emotional clutter and the junk, doing some weeding and seeding and finding your “moment” to recharge your original goals of living healthy. 

We’re gonna figure out why we got stuck in the first place, dig our way out and replant a few seeds that can bloom something fruitful.


By giving God access to teach us better nutrition, better physical health with effective fitness, de-stressing by decluttering thoughts & getting unstuck… 


Well, there’s a few things I’ve done to stop just ‘feeling better’ and start living & doing better. 

And how many of y’all know feelings fade but your life is what matters! 

God doesn’t play favorites. If He did it for me, He will certainly do it for you!! Change your mind, the rest will follow! 

Register HERE 

Let me share this prayer with you from Wild and Free

Holy Spirit, be gentle and complete and come remind us of who You made us to be. Father, take the eyes of our hearts and set them firmly on You as we seek to understand our identity and what direction we should be pointed in. In Jesus Name Amen

If you’d like to be added to the mailing list for the book club and receive some of the free gifts Jess Connolly & Hayley Morgan are offering; comment below and gather a few friends & preorder your books here Wild and Free Preorder