Are we feeding faith or fear: Overcoming Anxiety 

  

Have you ever dealt with anxiety? 

I have. FOR YEARS!!! And here’s where I found the solution! 

And I continue to use it whenever new issues, people, things, and problems try to overwhelm me! 

And yes, you’ll need to continue to ‘work it out’ on a regular basis just like one visit to the gym won’t make you fit, one prayer won’t keep you well! 

  

Surrender 

I started this devotional on the bible app and asked God to help me remove anything that’s a distraction from allowing Him access to my heart, (Psalm 139:23) my life and my mind. I’d love for you to join me. 

The 21 Day Plan – We start TODAY! 

I’m reading the @YouVersion plan ‘Living the Surrendered Life’. Check it out here:

http://bible.com/r/51

No spirit of fear

Friends, Grace covers us and removes every fear, every anxious thought, every regret, every what if, every thought that tries to hold itself higher than the name of Christ, every doubt that says we can’t because we think we are either not enough or too much, every deception & lie that disguises itself as truth and tries to convince us that it’s too late or too soon. Grace is the qualifier. Grace IS the reflection of the cross & the Cross was enough! 

For you, me & her and all the rest of them! 

 
I’ve seen many searching for answers far & wide and I know we’re all searching for answers only you provide and you know just what we need before we say a word. 

➕ And you call me deeper still… (Good Good Father Chris Tomlin) 

““It shall come to pass That before they call, I will answer; And while they are still speaking, I will hear.”

‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭65:24‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

Listen to Search My Heart by Hillsong UNITED on @AppleMusic.

Doing vs Being – Reflection of the Resurrection

   

“Knowing is not enough, we must apply. Willing is not enough, we must do.”

– Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

I might add to this brilliance,  that we must be (willing)  very intentional about not allowing our doing to become our being.

I wonder, if in our doing and our being what we’re reflecting.

I wonder…  are we a reflection of the resurrection.

A reflection of the mystery of the proof of a previously mention victory.

A reflection of the majesty of God’s ability to do far beyond we could ever imagine or think; because after all, His ways ARE higher!

A reflection of the mention of things seemingly random, often misunderstood, blurry, unlikely, impossible, too much and at the same time not enough.

A reflection of the greatness.

A reflection of the sacrifice.

A reflection of the true, honorable, just, pure, lovely, excellent and praise worthy.

A reflection of the courage from a heart that knows it is loved.

A reflection of the wounds.

A reflection of the broken.

A reflection of the made whole.

A reflection of the scars.

A reflection of the healing.

A reflection of the darkest valley.

A reflection of the laying down.

A reflection of the lacking nothing.

A reflection of the refreshing of the soul.

A reflection of the guidance on the right path.

A reflection of His name sake.

A reflection of no fear of evil.

A reflection of His presence, with us.

A reflection of His comfort.

A reflection of His story.

A reflection of His glory.

 

Reflection of the Resurrection: Doing what we’re becoming

Someone recently asked me how I got into the fitness industry. This came on the heels of a question in our Revelation Wellness training that asked “what truth have you believed that God revealed was actually a lie”… After I had my first child during college, I remember someone hinting that I would “end up just like my mother”… I’ve watched God bring this truth to the light of TRUTH from a space where Satan tried to use my “doing and being” against me and cause it to become the very thing He uses to reflect the resurrection!!!! (Romans 8)

The short story.

After suffering through an emotionally draining pregnancy & post partum depression (with my 3rd child) a woman named Kristine Bowman invited me to an aerobics class at a church. My 3 kids were just babies. (I had a chance to share the full testimony in an interview on the Faithful Wellness Podcast ) It’s been 13 years since that initial invitation to the aerobics class and my kids are now teenagers and one of them is a man-child… Y’all I’m still walking this road and I’m still doing & being who God is calling me to be!!! Glory be to God that He called me (qualified) in the middle of my (everyday) doing because He saw who He was calling me to be!

HE QUALIFIES THE CALLED

There’s a group of people that we are each designed to reach and we can either continue on that journey being our best selves; just a willing vessel;  serving and BEING fulfilled (not in our own strength but with whatever God fills us with) or we can hustle hard in hopes of DOING what’s ‘qualified’ and yet still not quite enough.

I think I’ll stick with being, and let God continue with the doing (in me)!

Some of you know I’m in the middle of a certification called Revelation Wellness; it’s a Christ centered faith THEN fitness counseling & wellness program that allows me to offer the fitness classes I’m already teaching in addition to a program called Weigh Less To Feed More.

The certification is a whole person approach to the dilemma many of the diets, programs and ’30 day whatever-the-quick-fix’ have created; the results on the outside are there but the person on the inside is still hurting and broken.

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The training so far has been a beautiful tapestry of humility & service.

My training will finish in May at a one week retreat in Arizona with nearly 40 other ‘platoon recruits’. I’ve met some beautiful souls who are all uncovering the Truth of our reflection of the resurrection; I love that they call us platoons, it’s a nod to being enlisted in an army; a sisterhood/brotherhood trained to fight the battle for our wholeness. Friends if you’re in or near Ohio, you can experience a taste of this beautiful faith THEN fitness mission at Jesus At The Core.

DOING: the reflecting

“Don’t mistake activity with achievement.”
John Wooden

I recently launched a class called F.I.T. (inspired by the AFAA fitness model of Frequency Intensity and Time) but we’ve taken a deeper core conditioning approach and allowed God access to the purpose of our movement and our 3 target goals are FOCUS, INTENTION and TIME.  In 1 hour we set our spirit, soul and body on a mission to get FIT!

  • FOCUS: STRENGTH – A river can cut through rock not because of its power but its persistence
  • INTENTION: DISCIPLINE – No discipline feels good at first
  • TIME: NOW – because…

 

 

To catch a glimpse of the FIT class check us out on facebook

 

BEING: distractions & moving with(IN) fluence

 

  

It’s really easy for distraction to sneak in. Seriously y’all it’s REALLY sneaky. It comes in when the “DOING BECOMES OUR BEING”. Let me explain this.

DISCLAIMER: I don’t mean to say that I have already achieved these things or that I have already reached perfection. But I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first took hold of me (Philippians 3:12)

Y’all, whether our doing is for our own self gratification, or our own subconscious checklist of the unspoken character of the “Good Christian” or it’s our ‘good thing’ that we do; when we become consumed with the getting-it-done it becomes who we are. It’s a slow fade. I’ve been meditating on Philippians 4:8 lately and realized that God could very well call us to a place of service and it’s where He needs us during that season but the service itself is not who we are, we are servants. God could call us to a place of humility & surrender and yet, still the surrendering is not who we are, we are still a servant, only now we are a humbled surrendered servant, standing and waiting for our instruction. In the doing and the waiting; our being is not defined by what we do; our being is our identity and to define ourselves by what we do would be to say that if the “doing” was to cease, then we would no longer be. Can I back track to that whisper someone dropped on me when I had my son, the one that hinted that I’d becoming just like my mom. That wasn’t a term of endearment, it was intended to imply that I was throwing away ‘my potential/future’ because I had gotten pregnant before marriage. I spent much of my college life and early adult hood trying to prove them wrong, and in my doing, I lost my being.

It wasn’t until I came to a place of surrender; admitting that I tried so hard to figure out who I was and failed miserably trying to un-do/hear/speak that which had been done/heard/spoken into my life that I began understanding that my being (Psalm 139) defines my doing (ability & potential) & the deceptive web became untangled.

It took me nearly 30 years to figure this out. Every year that my daughter has a birthday, I kinda celebrate my new found purpose. Friends God is calling us to the surrender. It’s in the surrender that we find ourselves FIT (focus, intention and time) for the calling (doing).

Friends He calls you His BELOVED. BE LOVED. This is where we find our being. This is where we find ourselves the reflection of the resurrection.

 

Wrapped in your calling

 

God can do more in our surrender than we could ever try to do in a lifetime of control  – Unknown

 

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I have found my joy

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YOU DON’T HAVE TO HIDE ANYMORE

 

I’ll admit that initially I thought to myself, ‘I’m not hiding. Anything. Or anywhere…’

I remember a very vivid hiding incident; I recently shared this with my son, and honestly now I believe it was God preparing me for today; I was probably 3rd or 4th grade.

My dad had been out drinking the night before and didn’t come home until just before it was time for us to go to school. As he staggered in the door proclaiming he was home, he made a suggestion(demand) to my mom that he would be taking us to school that day. For fear of an outburst that could result in another cyclical domestic violence ‘misunderstanding’; she obliged him. I can still feel the cold that clinched my teeth, froze my blood and locked my eyes on my mom hoping she could read my mind screaming “please don’t”. Taking us to school was the least of my fears. The thought of leaving my mother alone with him rendered me motionless. I knew what the morning for her would be like once he came back home. He dropped us off at school. I can still smell the stench of alcohol oozing from his skin smothered by thick chain-smoking cigarettes and cold coffee as he smacked on my forehead with an oscar-performance-worthy ‘have a good day baby girl’ stale kiss. I asked my teacher, Mrs. Shoemaker, for permission to go to the restroom. After returning from the bathroom, I leaned toward the doorway to ‘peeked inside’ to see if she was preoccupied. Our classroom sat at the end of the hallway near the outside doors. I had an escape plan. I bust through those doors and made a mad run for it, like my life; or my mother’s; depended on it. We lived 4 blocks from the school and I never looked back. I found my way inside the house through an unlocked door, ran upstairs into my sisters room and hid inside her closet. I still don’t know how long I was there, hiding, only that I could hear my mother speaking with someone. I could hear her explaining that I was at school. I could hear her voice and the other voices; a male and female; getting closer to the room where I was hiding in. The closet door opened and I saw my mother’s Indian moccasin slippers and she peacefully assured “Mimi, you can come out now”.

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My childhood home. Canton Ohio

 

I believe God is peacefully suggesting to all of us, YOU CAN COME OUT NOW.

The God of Glory

Ephesians 1:3-6 How blessed is God! And what a blessing he is! He’s the Father of our Master, Jesus Christ, and takes us to the high places of blessing in him. Long before he laid down earth’s foundations, he had us in mind, had settled on us as the focus of his love, to be made whole and holy by his love. Long, long ago he decided to adopt us into his family through Jesus Christ. (What pleasure he took in planning this!) He wanted us to enter into the celebration of his lavish gift-giving by the hand of his beloved Son.

7-10 Because of the sacrifice of the Messiah, his blood poured out on the altar of the Cross, we’re a free people—free of penalties and punishments chalked up by all our misdeeds. And not just barely free, either. Abundantly free! He thought of everything, provided for everything we could possibly need, letting us in on the plans he took such delight in making. He set it all out before us in Christ, a long-range plan in which everything would be brought together and summed up in him, everything in deepest heaven, everything on planet earth.

Y’all I love the way God loves us too much to leave us where we were, currently are or to our own wisdom & judgement of ourselves. (2 Corinthians 10:12; 1 Samuel 16:7)

As quick as I had the (self righteous) thought, immediately God leans in and whispers (when will you give me your whole heart)… (Jeremiah 29:11-13) The same heart that was in that little girl hiding in the closet?

My #JesusCalling devotional helped me unpack this heavy interference, revealing the truth that to fully embrace the opportunity to live in God’s presence consistently, I must expose and expel my rebellious tendencies.

REBELLIOUS TENDENCIES??

*what the what* (I’m guessing the girl who busted through those double doors was a tad bit rebellious)

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I don’t see any rebellion in that smile? Oh how well a smile can hide fears…

 

Y’all!!!! Who admits they’re rebellious?

Seriously I would have never considered myself in any such light or description until I realized rebellion is cousins to resentment, bitterness, suppressed feelings, approval addiction, dumbing down, anger, fear, comparison, guilt, shame, pride, rejection, self-preservation…

 

HEART CHECK!!!!!!

For as he thinks within himself, so he is (Proverbs 23:7)

In the garden of my heart, (Matthew 13) while I’ve seen the fruit of beautiful life-giving seeds that have been planted since that cheesy childhood smile, God is revealing the places where some sort of seed was planted that has produced thorns, thistles and weeds. Weeds that have choke the truth of our identity.

You do know that weeds can disguise themselves to look like flowers right? Especially if you’re unfamiliar with ‘gardening’. (Meditate right there for a minute)

You do know that weeds tend to grow wild and untamed right?

You do know that weeds are rebellious?!?!?!

Y’all These rebellious tendencies cause us to hide!

 

What causes us to hide? 

We could take this all the way back to the garden of Eden when Adam & Eve first realized they had done exactly what God asked them not to do. #rebelious

Satan imitates whatever God does, but with a different object. God uses the beautiful things He has made to draw you to Him. Satan uses the same things to lure you into his power, and draw you away from God. Since man has been in the world, he has had to work. And God has blessed work. But Satan takes work, and tries to make mischief with it. He tries to make you care for your work apart from God, and thus it is turned into dead, graceless, unprofitable work. As you go through life you will meet with all sorts of temptations. Temptations are Satan’s baits. Then, whatever you undertake, keep God before your eyes: keep God in your thoughts. Directly you begin to lose sight of God and to forget Him — then beware! Recover yourself as quickly as you can; you have somehow got hold of a bait which Satan is pulling towards him.

(The Baits of Satan S. Baring-Gould, M. A.)

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Satan doesn’t have the ability to produce fruit. He doesn’t have the ability to create anything. All he does is dig up rotten apples. He puts them in front of us to see how we respond. When he sees that we’d rather run and hide, he knows this is an apple that didn’t fall far from that forbidden tree.

  • Hiding is a defense.
  • It’s a protection and a guard to keep us safe.
  • It’s a wall that is usually put up from a previous hurt or rejection or abandonment
  • It’s a wall that is built brick by brick and it becomes fortified the more we replay the scenarios.

Let’s bring these issues to the Light of Christ so that He can set us free.

FULLY FREE!

We don’t have to hide A N Y M O R E !!!!!

“Do not call anything impure that God has made clean.” Acts 10:15

God is taking down walls. This is the only way it can be done. If we do it in our own strength and ability, then it becomes a thing that we feel obligated and pressured (lured by satan with his lies) to prove ourselves, perform and seek approval.

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“No one lights a lamp and puts it in the cellar or under a basket, but on a lampstand, so that those who come in may see its light.
Take care then, that the light in you is not darkness. If, therefore, your whole body is full of light, with no part of it in darkness, it will be entirely illuminated, as when a lamp shines its light on you.” (Luke 11:34-36)

 

Types of hiding (a few of the apples that keep dangling in the garden of my heart)

(previously mentioned)…resentment, bitterness, suppressed feelings, approval addiction, dumbing down, anger, fear, comparison, guilt, shame, pride, rejection, self-preservation…

  • Comparison
  • Running to/from/for protection, approval or affirmation
  • Overcompensation & performance
  • Intimidation

 

You can come out now

 

He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart (Psalm 91:4 NIV)

There are no shortcuts to any place worth going!

But if you ask for directions, God freely & generously provides wisdom without finding fault. (James 1:5)

A few days ago I spent much of my day fighting what Jenni Catron calls a “clout killer” – comparison.

That thing knows where it still holds the apple over your head.

“When I compare my life to others it’s actually the sin of covetousness. It lures us to deeply desire what another person has, including God-given influence, gifts, talents, experiences and opportunities all the while discrediting our own” Jenni Catron

I was studying scripture, researching, writing and preparing speaking points for a fitness leadership group & our upcoming Refresh Summit and Satan wanted nothing more than to prove to me that I wasn’t qualified to step up. It took most of my day but I finally quieted that doubt. I thank God for the wisdom filled words of #WarriorPrincessDancerPoet Morgan Day Cecil and the truth of Psalm 34:5! Exactly what I needed to hear to remind me that God has called me to a very specific place & purpose; to come out from hiding, to put faith into action & to give honor & praise to Him.

Those who look to the Lord are radiant, their faces will never be ashamed!! Psalm 34:5 #knowwhoyouare

When my father past away in 2014, the Lord began showing me that my healing (Spirit, soul and body: an undoing toward wholeness) was directly linked to my father’s death. I knew that healing was directly linked to forgiveness, I had begun that process almost ten years ago; but what I did’t connect was that as cancer began to take over my dad’s body he had come to a place of undoing in his own life. He was allowing God to undo who he had become. As I leaned in close, I was that little girl again, I started learning my daddy. It was intimidating at first. I could still smell stale alcohol and broken promises. But, God took me by the hand and guided me. I came to know the man behind the stale cold kisses. I learned the man who turned to alcohol to hide from his own fears and insecurities.  I learned that God was taking me deeper  into my childhood so that He could actually show me who I was created to be and He was removing the walls of fear, guilt, bitterness and insecurity.

While Satan would have me to believe that I am still that little girl afraid of her father, running and hiding; though I now walk through the shadow of death, I am not afraid (of my dad or myself) because God is with me. The process of my healing and becoming; appreciating my reflection, my body, my gifts, my talents, my confidence; guiding me out from under the case of false identity; leading me to where I am today, in His presence; is an opportunity to live truly free. (Ephesians 1)

He wants you to know that you don’t have to hide anymore. You are no longer captive. (Romans 8:15-17)

Be prepared. You’re up against far more than you can handle on your own. Take all the help you can get, every weapon God has issued, so that when it’s all over but the shouting you’ll still be on your feet. Truth, righteousness, peace, faith, and salvation are more than words. Learn how to apply them. You’ll need them throughout your life. God’s Word is an indispensable weapon. In the same way, prayer is essential in this ongoing warfare. Pray hard and long. Pray for your brothers and sisters. Keep your eyes open. Keep each other’s spirits up so that no one falls behind or drops out. (‭Ephesians‬ ‭6‬:‭13-18‬ MSG)

 

Come out from your hiding.

YOU HAVE BEEN REDEEMED. 

WE ARE MADE NEW IN CHRIST AND THERE IS NOW NO CONDEMNATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FROM THE TIP OF MY TOES TO THE TOP OF MY HEAD I HAVE FOUND MY FREEDOM, I HAVE FOUND MY JOY!!!!!!

BE WILD ABOUT YOUR FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Further study scriptures from Fervent study – Identity)

“The enemy has been telling us for so long that we’re no good, washed up, un-derequipped, incompetent, insignificant, un-loveable, and not quite up to par. Our story isn’t even close to being over. We are already seated in heavenly places. We’re fully functional with weapons our enemy has no answer for.” – Priscilla Shirer FERVENT

Psalm 34:5

Ephesians 1

Ephesians 6

Ezekiel 16:10-13

2 Corinthians 4:6-7